Everyone always tells me that love will find me. I think this is true, I'm just too impatient to wait. I go through periods of time where I want to give up on finding love. Even the concept of love is too vast and elusive for me to wrap my head around. They say there are multiple forms of love and that over time love can bloom and prosper. I know this is true because I have seen it with my friends and with my parents.
Those friends who are in a long-term relationship are lucky and irksome. It's impossible to understand what goes through their minds. How do they stay in such long term relationships? The idea of staying with someone frightens me to death and frankly sounds like my hell. Yet, I find myself yearning for such a fate, to be intertwined with another soul for eternity. The idea of finding a soulmate and life partner scares and exhilarates me. However, with all the stupid people and situations in life, this idea fades away and I am shaken to my senses. The thinly veiled mirage of love shatters into pieces as the stark world solidifies into my reality. And thus, I am tempted more and more to sing love's swan song and to give up on my search.
